FORGIVENESS, JUST LET IT GO.......

THIS IS A LITTLE DIFFERENT FROM OTHER ENTRIES, BUT SOMETHING THAT I FEEL WE CAN ALL APPLY TO OUR LIVES. FORGIVENESS, THIS IS SOMETHING THAT I AM STILL TRYING TO MASTER BECAUSE ITS SOMETHING THAT TAKES TRUE TIME TO UNDERSTAND AND TO TRULY MEAN. WE ALL AT TIMES HOLD GRUDGES THAT ARE SOMETIMES WITH US FOR YEARS. THIS CAN BE TOWARD AND OLD FRIEND, FAMILY MEMBER, AN EX THAT BETRAYED YOU ETC. WE HOLD THESE THINGS AND WE NEVER DEAL WITH THEM WE JUST HARBOR THEM AND NEVER RESOLVE THEM. WHAT I HAVE LEARNED IN THE PAST IS THAT THE FUEL OF ENERGY THAT WE PUT INTO THESE IS WASTED. WHILE WE HOLD ON TO THIS NEGATIVITY AND THIS ANGER NINE TIMES OUT OF TEN THE PROJECTED INDIVIDUAL WE HARBOR THIS ON COULD CARE LESS OR IS JUST IN MUCH PAIN AS WE ARE ABOUT WHATEVER THE GRUDGE IS BASED. FOR A LONG TIME IF I FELT THAT A PERSON SLIGHTED ME I WOULD MAKE IT MY PERSONAL GOAL TO NEVER FORGIVE , TO HOLD ON TO THE VENDETTA. IT TOOK ME YEARS TO REALIZE THAT I WAS HURTING MYSELF. HOLDING ON TO THESE THINGS IS HOLDING ON TO NEGATIVE ENERGY WHICH STUNTS YOUR CHARACTER GROWTH. WE ALL HAVE DONE THINGS IN LIFE THAT WAS WRONG TO ANOTHER INDIVIDUAL. BUT HOW CAN WE LEARN FROM THEM WHEN WE CANT COMPLETE THE ACT OF FORGIVENESS. I FEEL THAT GAY PEOPLE AS A WHOLE HAS MORE ISSUES TO DEAL WITH THEN MOST PEOPLE. MANY OF US WHEN WE CAME OUT ARE NOT ACCEPTED BY OUR FAMILIES AND WE ARE SHUNNED AND OUT CASTED. WE HAVE HAD MOTHERS AND FATHERS DISOWN US AND WE END UP HATING THEM AND OTHERS. DO YOUR BEST TO UNDERSTAND THAT PEOPLE FEAR WHAT THEY DO NOT UNDERSTAND SO THEY RATHER OUTCAST US THEN DEAL WITH US. WE MAY OF BEEN IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE THAT CHEATED ON US OR BETRAYED US AND EVEN THOUGH YOU BOTH ARE NOT TOGETHER YOU KEEP THAT RESENTMENT AND CARRY IT TO OTHER RELATIONSHIPS. YOU MAKE OTHER PEOPLE SUFFER FOR OTHERS MISGIVINGS. WHEN YOU HOLD THESE THINGS TO PEOPLE WHO DO NOT DESERVE IT YOU WILL NEVER HAVE A SUCCESSFUL RELATIONSHIP. GRUDGES ARE A WEIGHT ON YOUR SOUL THAT IS SO HEAVY THAT IT WILL SUFFOCATE ALL YOUR FUTURE ENDEAVORS WITH PEOPLE. SO AS EASY IT MAY SOUND BUT HARD TO DO...... LET IT GO ALL OF IT!!! START FRESH!!! DO YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT?